One thing about music, when it hits you feel no pain.

I've probably spent about forty minutes messing with the settings of my page. So it's only fair if I now make a post, or that forty minutes would feel really pointless. Well, they probably still are anyways as nothing has really changed about this page. Accept three really pointless photos. Ah well.

I'm back in the boarding house for two weeks and it makes me realise how much I missed being surrounded by my insane friends. My parents are in L.A celebrating my aunty's birthday. I wish I was there, and I also speak for my other cousin when I say this, "Damn our education." Yes Al. I agree - I hope we still have our plan to run away to Mexico as well. Meet you at the airport tomorrow ;).

Music has actually brightened up this week for me, I love Jacks Mannequin right now and The Naked and Famous album is continuing to blow my mind. I also finished season one of One Tree Hill - WOW. Haha, as you can see - this week has been very productive so far.

It's EIGHTEEN degrees. Well, it was today, Summer's almost here and the thought of exams are looming over me like a big dark cloud. This school year has gone strangely quickly - it kind of scares me that only 8 months can pass you by so fast, it felt like I blinked in September and March came that quickly.

For now - I'm done waiting, being negative, ranting and over thinking everything. This week has consisted of me telling myself "eyes up, things could be worse, and in the words of Chris from Skins sometimes you just have to say f*ck it." There's no need in creating extra stress for yourself. Smile like you mean it - it helps sometimes. Sadly I've felt the absences of specific people today. Either being a friend or someone from my family. Missing someone is probably one of the worst feelings ever. Especially when someone lives overseas, you feel completely helpless. I hate distances. Ok negativity over.

I’m living in the future so the present is my past.

It's been a while since I last blogged - I'm gonna cast my mind back to this weekend. Saturday night was amazing - there have been points this week where I've actually laughed to myself remembering it. Being crushed in the middle of a mosh pit wasn't exactly fun - so me and Anya escaped and stood on the side (with a comfortable amount of space around us) and enjoyed the music. Without being trampled on - was amazing, I'm waiting for a time machine to be built so I can rewind back to it. The journey back was also hilarious - but that's another story all together.

It feels like I've spent the whole of this week waiting for something. I can't tell you exactly what it is, I hardly know exactly what it is myself, but I'm bored of wasting energy on things and friendships I don't need. A friendship should be effortless, and if effort is ever needed - then the person will make the effort for you if they care enough - It's simple. If the person isn't making the effort for you - they just don't care. Nothing more, nothing less. I've accepted it - I'm done 'waiting' because I'm wasting time, certain situations make you realise how fragile life actually is, don't ever waste time.

Every second you spend overanayalysing a situation is a second you'll never get back. It's a second you could have been smiling instead and focusing on the better things, they normally do outweigh the bad. I always tell myself not to expect things from people, it saves you from getting let down. I've had my fair share of being let down, it's not a feeling that I want to have often, quite the opposite. So I've decided not to stress (or frown) anymore. Who needs the stress? Or the frown lines for that matter.

All this warm weather is really making me look forward to Summer...but then again if it hits over 15 degrees in this country everyone looses their minds and comes out in flip flops. It's England - which means erratic weather. It will probably be raining next week. Unlike most people, I like rain (when I'm inside.) 

Listening to Hold On - Angus and Julia Stone. I bought their album on Sunday when I was exhausted, and very pensive. I was doing the whole 'I have nothing to look forward to' charade, but that's another story. The songs are amazing, but there's something about every song thats also very depressing. I don't really get depressed by music - it's weird. I also bought The Naked and Famous album yesterday - Amazing! It's the complete opposite of depressing. It's actually brightened up my week :)


"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow." - Albert Einstein

Some call love a word, some call love a thief.

I really should sleep, but the amount of thoughts I've been having lately is quite unnerving. Why is it that when you have something to look forward to, things move in slow motion. This week has felt like a year - and it's only Wednesday evening. Results tomorrow - I've tried not to think about it for about two weeks, but it's too close to forget about now. Prepare yourself for if I blog tomorrow, it won't be pretty.

Despite it moving in slow motion, it's been a good week so far (this will change tomorrow). I JUST want the weekend. 12th March - yes we've been looking forward to this day since the dark disgusting depths of November - when we forgot what the sun looked like and you couldn't go outside without 49389 layers on. Now that the 12th March is only two days away, I really hope this Saturday night lives up to all the anticipation we gave it. It should as the people I'm going with, the venue and the band are all amazing.

This is annoying me. So I thought I'd mention it. Why is the L word thrown around like it's meaningless? That word should actually be considered a swear word. When it's said people tend to turn into a state of mush. Whats the fuss? It's just a word and to be honest I only believe it when my Mummy and my best friends say it to me. Anyone else who would ever consider it coming out of their mouths can go away. I'm not saying I would never like to hear it, because I would be lying, just actually mean it when you say it - it gets boring after a while and turns into 'just another word.'

"Because I trust you and it goes way beyond a song when i say that i love you" - Goodbye To You, Ed Sheeran

Talking of Ed Sheeran, I watched this music video earlier. It's so sad - but such an amazing song. 

Sweet Dreams

I wouldn't want to have it any other way

CONTENT. Finally - Ahhh dkjhsaadahsd 11 days Until Two Door. So excited...many surprises await you ;)

I'm extremely confused about festivals at the moment (hard life I know) V Festival or Reading? If you're reading this and you've been to both. Tell me which one's better orrrr I guess I can just go to both. Still contemplating the idea of camping, I'm pretty much afraid of dirt. So I don't know how that one's gonna work. I'm down for 'new experiences' and all, so I might just camp, but it's gonna involve a lot of hand sanitiser.

Other than the confusion, life's good (for now). English coursework is killing me and I'm getting that spring feeling, even though its freezing. Exams are kind of close(ish) - which makes me panic, but I guess that means that Summer's close too - ha, wishful thinking, 4 months isn't exactly close. Results next week too. I'd prefer not to talk about this - I'm verging mental breakdown over these results. I'm absolutely petrified.

I just cleared out my music library, it feels like I've thrown away those clothes at the back of your cupboard that you keep 'just in case' you need them. Most of the songs in my library hold memories, but I thought that it was time I let some of them go - you can't hold on forever. Memories tend to fade after a space of time anyway, they just become weird blurs, but here's one I can't let go of quite yet...

Reminds me of a few summers ago, when a lot of things changed.

“Even if you think the flame has died, there's at least one lyric that'll hit that last hot spot, and then you'll find yourself as fuck*d as you were the day you lied and said you never wanted to see her again.” John Mayer