We'll be everything you need, just believe me.

THE WEEKND

ECHOES OF SILENCE

 

http://the-weeknd.com/

XO

May your neighbors respect you trouble neglect you, angels protect you and heaven accept you.

Cause you don’t say you love me
to your friends when they ask you
even though we both know that you do - Drake

 

Just another kid going through life
So worried that I won't be accepted .

TAKE CARE. 15/11/11. OVOXO.

NEED TO get back up.

The quotes from Manroe are amazing. RIP.

Couldn't agree more.

How did November get here so quick? Scares me how fast time goes.

Saw J COLE  in concert last night, beautiful.

 

This is too true. Some things are better left unsaid. WORD.

ENOUGH SAID BAMBI.

Love.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Feel the heartbeat in my mind.

im in love with Rihanna.

Baby get familliar with the order.

I’ll give it all away, don’t care what the people say I’ll be a million, billion, trillion miles away.

It's been 42 days. 

I've had a birthday in the time I haven't written and passed my driving test. They both feel like about two years ago but it was pretty much only a month. A lot can change in a month.

Not much I can say about the last month though, its been school, home, school, UCAS, home. Killing me! But hopefully it will be over soon and I can breathe. I don't want to bore you about my school life though, it bores me enough.

I'm seeing Big Sean tomorrow at Scala - SO excited and seeing J Cole in Novemeber - ee I love my sister, thank you!

Time goes too quick, scares me. It's half term already - ALL I want is Summer 2012. WILL be amazing...

My paragraphs are getting shorter. I don't really have much else to say..

Love.

p.s Bee i miss you. please fix it <3

AND

I'M 18 IN 20 days yeeeeeeeeeeeeeea.

But she got me all up in my zone, said she like the view I got in this place. S*it I did all of that on my own.

I have school tomorrow so to contradict my awful mood I added the happiest song I heard in a while to my music player. So cute -- Bluey Robinson, I have no idea why he's not famous. 

Example's new album is really good...I'm a base freak so that probably why I like it..LINK!

Summer. Summer. Summer went too quickly. Amazing to think I've been to two different countries and it went that quickly!? 

Nothing lasts forever. So it's back to work & reality tomorrow. Ew...

I'm addicted to tumblr, such a good time waster. Click on the link you'll be there for hours -- www.imansheikh.tumblr.com 

BLAH I haven't really got much else to say.

Mow.

Walk your broken heart through that door.

Summer's boring, blah my days lately have been darkened by the disappointments life has bought me in the past two weeks. You fall down, you have to get back up right? Definitely not that easy. Especially when your motivation hits rock bottom. This tends to happen to me when I get knocked over, I just need to be a man and get back up.

I wanted to dedicate this post to this band I've come across. I don't know how but they've mixed grime with rnb and soul. They are amazing - I haven't heard sounds this good for a while -- the link to their latest mixtape(s) is here -- download it, you'll do yourself a favour. (B YOU'LL LOVE THEM)

http://soundcloud.com/theweekndxo

I also added them to my music player thingy too.

But yeah thas it..the think above is amazing -- but the one playing now on the music player blew my mind when the beat dropped.

Back to school in less than 2 weeks, although Summer's boring I'm still dreading going back. Reality will set in again and the repetitive cycle of revise, sleep, eat, stress will start all over again - feels like it just ended.

I'm 18 in a month tomorrow - I HAVE no idea what to do for my birthday, and what's even scarier is that I'll legally be an adult which means responsibility blahh. Can't wait to partyy though. Yeeeeee.

Love.

Never forgetting from where I came, And no matter where I’m headed, I promise to stay the same.

Today has consisted of tiredness, sunshine, driving in really busy places with L plates on (not fun) and new shoes. The new shoes are the best part, and as a matter of fact - I'm sat in my room wearing them now...because I have nothing better to do.

My favourite pair of sunglasses broke today aswell - hasn't really been my day at all. But hopefully I can get my sunglasses fixed and pass my driving test sometime soon.

Last night - saw some friends, some who I haven't seen for a long time, was amazing to see them and you realise how special some people are to you when you don't see them very often.

I'm going away on Wednesday to the south of France - can't wait to just do nothing and taaaaaaan.

Kanye West and Jay Z's new album. If you haven't, listen to it...it's amazing. 

That's all I got. X

She searched the entire city I let her explore and now she’s saying she’s more lonely than ever before.

Good things do happen to me, and when they do I tend to ignore them ! I need to stop doing that and I need to start taking advantage of every good thing that happens to me. I'm going to Cannes on the 17th :) SO glad I'm getting another holiday, so excited to tan (for real) and forget about England for 4 days.

But on a happy note about England. PINKBERRY has opened in Selfridges. So happy....SO yummy you have to try it if you haven't. They're pretty too

 But other than that....I don't really know what's new. Weird that there's about one month of Summer left and we have to go back to school next month. Bleeeh I shudder thinking about it, and RESULTS in 15 days, I have nothing to say about this. I'm petrified..

Just have to wait it out I guess.

I've become obssessed with Drake again. It tends to happen every Summer, but he doesn't stop making amazing music....he's so talented. and for those who didn't know, he has a blog too...http://octobersveryown.blogspot.com :) the title of this post is dedicated to one of my favourite songs ever... along with Fear. The Weeknd are also amazing. If you like Drake you'll like them too...

Enjoy. Press play...and if the music's annoying you the control box is at the very bottom of the page.x

MISHAAL I LOVE YOU AND MY KIPPAH. that is all.

Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones.

I'm back in Engerlandddd. The weather's not bad which is shocking. Had an amazing time away. I love my crazy-ass family. A lot!

I actually haven't blogged in a while. I've reached a blip in my relationship with my page, I don't want people to load my page and think I'm an emotional wreck, or a moaning brat, because (hopefully) I'm not either. But this page is as close as you'll ever get to the inside of my mind if you hardly know me. If you're loved - its a different story.

Okay I'm gonna go off on one now...

THE FUTURE. Its annoying to plan ahead, as my whole mentality is this whole live in the moment thing. But to be honest you can only do this to a certain extent. Like in my previous post, life is about balancing things out. The most successful people think about the future as well as the present.

THE PAST - Is another story, I'm trying to get my head round if you should look back or even think about the past, you can say it's all already happened so what's the point? But the past also shapes who we are, and we learn from messing up in the past, so thinking about it is sometimes necessary to stop us making the same mistakes over and over.

"Trying to convince myself I've found one, making the same mistake I never learned from" - Drake, Fall For Your Type.

EXPECTATIONS. The one of many annoying things about life is when you get your hopes you, you always get let down. Always, it always happens to me. So I don't get my hopes up anymore. Its not negative, it's just better than that feeling you get when you get let down, when you wanna crawl in a hole and eat ice cream forever.

RELATIONSHIPS One word - fragile. Don't abuse them. Never take advantage of someone's trust and never second best someone because you'll be the one who misses them when they're gone. What goes around comes around.

"I just hope you don't believe in karma, because it will come back ten times harder." - Skepta, Rescue Me.

LOVE, don't say it unless you mean it. Its overused.

HATE. Again overused.

I'm doneee.

KANYE WEST AND JAY Z - THE THRONE is out on the 8th August. 9 days. So excited.

I will try blog more. With music links! They're more fun.

Loveee

She said I should come over, though the music's not my type..

Ok so remember that list? The one two posts before this. I've achieved one thing so far - I'm currently in Dubai staying at my cousin's - YAY. It's only day 1, so the trip is still young. It's been a good day though, went to the mall then dinner, and later, in the evening went to the beach and ended up in the sea with my clothes on with my sister. Nothing better - especially when the sea is warm. Won't ever forget that!

Today I realised that it's important to live. Meaning don't be caught in the moment, but don't get lost in the past. Keep your wits about you but don't let your heart play tricks on you. Do what you want, when you want and stay happy. Don't over think but don't make decisions you know you will regret. It's all really complicated and mistakes mean you will learn how to do the right thing, if you fall get back up. Who wants to be on the floor? I refuse to look forward this Summer or even to look back for that matter. The moment's more important and so is being happy. My happiness is destroyed when I over think, so it's not gonna happen. Not here, not now.

The battery on my laptop just went to red. Weeh :(.

Before I left - went to a party at my friend's, just girls, as boys smell. Was so much fun, as it was so simple. Made me realise how special people are and how short life is. Relationships are fragile and they won't get damaged if you never take advantage of someone's trust and never lie. 

"Never lie to someone who trusts you and never trust someone who lies to you." - Tyga.

Music.....The first song, just says summer all over it. I could listen to it a million times..I'll also add a few more links which I loveee.

x.

And I don't know how imma manage, if one day you just up and leave..

It's 10:11pm and 4 seconds, Tuesday evening to be precise. I just realised life's a waiting game, only if you make it one. 12 school days left untill Summer, waiting for that. 8 days untill my driving test, also waiting for that. Waiting for some bad or good news aswell. All this waiting isn't exactly fun, but all I can do is hold my breath and wait it out and hope for the best. Good things come to those who wait right? Fingers crossed.

All I really want is to be lying on a beach right now, with a tan and my ipod in my ears. With that feeling where you dont know what day of the week it is and the biggest thing you worry about is if your suncream will stop you from tanning even more. Not long now...

The weekend....Saturday went to Harrods and went to the sales. People everywhere, urgh hated it but did get a pair of jeans. YAY. Sunday - saw Mama and Dad Cheetah (I've been adopted)  and sat and blew bubbles and threw around a frisbee. Simple things really do have the effect of making me happier - don't even know why. But yeah was a really good day. I love being a baby cheetah <3

Other than that nothing's new, I'm just here, waiting.

Bought The Wombats album on Sunday. It's really good - such happy summery music. Eeee Summer !

Lil Wayne's music continues to blow my mind. I cannot express my love for him, he's changed music. The sounds he makes are incredible and he's just amazing.

Okay I'll stop showering you with Youtube links now. Need to sleep. I want Friday now...Weeh.

gravity's a bit of a setback.

Officially finished exams on Friday. So from now on, I will try and blog as much as I physically can, but don't expect life stories every single post. There is only so much I can say. 

Friday started on a low, I realised I have lost two friends who were very special to me. People drift apart and people change (no doubt about it) and you have to accept it. I think when someone cries it means they've been strong for too long. Not that they're weak. So I've accepted the fact that I'm probably not gonna get these two people back. But this has made me realise that if you care about someone show it, and don't hesitate because life's too short.

Saturday night was alot better - I went to a dinner party at my little asian's house! Was amazing and I can safely say she's a god in the kitchen. Was an amazing night! Spent today with my lovely Mummy just in London - so yeah this weekend ended on a high. Can't wait for the wind down towards Summer now. Well not really a wind down, as you have the word UCAS thrown at you in every sentence by either your Mother or someone at school. So yes, need to start sorting that UCAS stuff out now. No excuse because I have no revision left to do. Ahhh scared.

School offically starts tomorrow again, but Ascot Races starts on Tuesday - which will cushion the blow of a 10 hour day as we finish our day at 4 instead of 7. Yay - simple things make me happy as you can see. I've been in a really happy mood lately - no surprise there as there's nothing to stress about. Life's good and I refuse to let anything at all bring me down this Summer, at all. I've decided to make a list of things I want to achieve this summer. Okay the list isn't so good right now. I'll add more to it next time I blog. But this is what I got so far:

• Pass my driving test - Not saying when it is. And if you're special you'd know already. But cross your fingers for me. Do it now!
• Take millions of photos - They're such a good way to remember Summer. So yes I plan to take my giant tourist camera everywhere with me.
• Road trip to Brighton. I've loved it there since i was like 7 so yeah wanna go there!
• Go to Dubai and see my cousin.

Music...I've decided that Chris Brown's new album is a let down so he can go home. But he's still pretty. Luke Skywalker - Omarion is amazing. The BEAT - wow, and my alter ego, which likes wierder music likes:

PRESS PLAY NOW! I love love love them. Summer soundtrack for sure.

Im also addicted to Jersey Shore, but it's embaressing that I love it and i perefer not to discuss it. "It's T-shirt TIME". Love it watch it if you haven't before. Actually I'm gonna go watch it now. Shh don't tell. 

And also - click this.

<3 

and this. That is all.

It's so quiet out here.

AHHHH photog tomorrow and friday and im freee!

made a tumblr. check it.

LOVE 

imansheikh.tumblr.com

Inspiration drying up, motivation slowing down.

:( I Reaallly want this to be over. I'm on a revision break. blah i hate this feeling. I'm so bored of waiting ! 


ONE WEEK TO GO.


Hehe i got a kitty. Lola - I'll put pics up next week ! So cute.

x

Musn't get our feet wet, because that leads to regret diving in too soon.

I MISS BLOGGING. 5/6 exams done, so forget my pact to not blog until June. I'm bored.

Just got back from dinner with my favourite family. Accept the fact I'm exhausted and these exams actually have made me go insane life is good. More than 1 person has said to me that I've acting like a crazy person since my exams (almost) finished on Wednesday. What can I say? A levels are brutal and my heart goes out to the people who have exams after half term (like me). Alright for some to be done with exams and do what they please, and if you are - I. Hate. You. Accept you B. You're aight ;) <3 But mA they all went okay. Not gonna think about them until the dreaded results day in August. And STILL waiting for the 7th June - when my last written one is, then I've got Photography, but really that doesn't count as an A Level now does it? Hehe.

2 Words - ED. SHEERAN. Went to see him with my sister, cousin and cheetah a few weeks ago, hes incredible and amazing AND ginger. What a combination. Love love him so much I've dedicated my title of this post to him. His supporting act was also amazing, youtube Kal Lavelle, such a pretty voice.

 Also saw Hangover 2 last night, was better than I thought. Almost lives up to the original. All I can say is that I LOVE ALAN! (AL that was for you - I know you love him too.) I also saw Insidious a few weeks ago. No comment ( DON'T WATCH IT) you'll pee yourself, for real.

My cousin's also here from Dubai, - reinstating the insanity that is my family. BEAUTEES. Love you all

SUMMER'S ALMOST HERE - nothing better. I think there's something so exciting about the thought of the hot weather, summer clothes, and not having to care about anything. Hopefully it will be a good one.

I'm also 18 four months today, thought I'd put that out there. I don't feel that old, if you know me you'd know I have the mentality of a five year old. It's better than being boring.

Listening to Calgary - Bon Iver.  I'm so excited for their album to come out later this month. Also love Tinashe.  Listen to the link :) and RIZZLE KICKS. Hehehe - B!

Okay I'm done. 

This songs good too.

Love

For all we know, we may not get tomorrrow.

Really want Summer. I wish life had a forward button and at some points, a pause button. 

I'm gonna stop blogging untill the 10th June. No Time due to the wonderful thing we call exams - Hopefully it will go quickly, I'll be back :)

“Every moment you get is a gift. Spend it on things that matter. Don’t spend it by dwelling on unhappy things.” - Anon.

What are you waiting for?

As I said earlier today - it's  been a while since I last wrote on here. Been so busy with revision, family, friends and trying to keep myself smiling at the same time. It's not as hard as I thought it would be and although I'm petrified of these exams, hopefully everything will fall into place and it will be Summer before I know it. Note that I said hopefully - fingers crossed. In a way I'm bored of the monotonous routine i have established and I'm bored of staring at the same wall for five hours a day while my brain turns into mush and starts screaming that I can't do this anymore. This normally doesn't happen after an five hours, more like ten minutes.

There has been some photography success this break though - took this photo of my sister after we painted her with neon paint. The blue light makes her look like an alien, kind of - she's a pretty little thing.

Events recently have made me realise how fragile life actually is. You can spend years building trust and it can be destroyed in a second flat. Or looking at the bigger picture - you don't even know what's going to happen tomorrow, so forget about it. Every thing's unpredictable and not everything is certain. Take it as it comes, it's the easiest way to deal with problems hurling at you in every direction.

Seeing Ed Sheeran in less than a month. That shows how quickly time has actually gone. I remember booking them and thinking how far away May seemed to be. So excited, although it's on the same day as my Geography A level - so I will either be exteremely happy or the exam may make this backfire.

There are a few things that have made me too happy in the past few weeks.

1. This kid & this song - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-MugZGE0fzU

2. Watching my sister attempt to 'revise.'

3. Dispicable Me. Watch it !

4. The weather - I want summer nowww!

5.  Beautiful People - Chris brown and the video. loveeeeee ♥

6. SKYPE - I'd be so sad without it.

7. The fact that we're going back to summer term. (ignoring the fact we have exams)

x.

It's your heart, that gives me this western feeling.

Serious lack of blogging and I'm sorry - Watch this space.

You'll spend everyday, shining your light my way.

I'm not going to comment on the last time I blogged because I don't even remember. I'm also not going to tell you how the last few weeks have been, because they've been a huge blur. I have no idea where time has gone, I can remember last summer like it was yesterday. Easter's started and I have no choice but to revise, it feels like I just stop revising for last year's exams. As people we have to constantly be planning ahead, hoping that what we're currently doing will help 'the situation' in the future. I wish life had a pause button where the past didn't matter, the future is a distant blur and you could actually enjoy the moment instead of thinking about the next five minutes. But who's to say we can't do this without the pause button?

We're constantly moving forward,  challenges, problems and amazing things are thrown at us in all directions and it exhausts us mentally. Sometimes you need to pause and just realise how lucky you are, when you're seeking to be happier or better you need to look at what you already have, or who you already have. This week, I realised how special a friend of mine is to me - they've always been there, but you don't seem to realise theese things untill they hit you in the face. You know who you are.x

I PASSED MY THEORY. And it's actually the most pointless thing ever, I just wanna drive now - eeee so fustrating.

After tomorrow I will start revising or I will become a failure.

While I'm at it - I LOVE my family. I don't think it's healthy how insane we are. I find that however crappy you're feeling, a bbm or even a chat with someone who knows you better than you know yourself really helps - and if there's anyone who can make me smile, it's my family. Love You All, yes Especially you Mish (and every other family member reading this. i dont intend to start a war) - miss you <3

 

Listen to For You - Angus and Julia Stone if you haven't. 

Bored. Bye.

One thing about music, when it hits you feel no pain.

I've probably spent about forty minutes messing with the settings of my page. So it's only fair if I now make a post, or that forty minutes would feel really pointless. Well, they probably still are anyways as nothing has really changed about this page. Accept three really pointless photos. Ah well.

I'm back in the boarding house for two weeks and it makes me realise how much I missed being surrounded by my insane friends. My parents are in L.A celebrating my aunty's birthday. I wish I was there, and I also speak for my other cousin when I say this, "Damn our education." Yes Al. I agree - I hope we still have our plan to run away to Mexico as well. Meet you at the airport tomorrow ;).

Music has actually brightened up this week for me, I love Jacks Mannequin right now and The Naked and Famous album is continuing to blow my mind. I also finished season one of One Tree Hill - WOW. Haha, as you can see - this week has been very productive so far.

It's EIGHTEEN degrees. Well, it was today, Summer's almost here and the thought of exams are looming over me like a big dark cloud. This school year has gone strangely quickly - it kind of scares me that only 8 months can pass you by so fast, it felt like I blinked in September and March came that quickly.

For now - I'm done waiting, being negative, ranting and over thinking everything. This week has consisted of me telling myself "eyes up, things could be worse, and in the words of Chris from Skins sometimes you just have to say f*ck it." There's no need in creating extra stress for yourself. Smile like you mean it - it helps sometimes. Sadly I've felt the absences of specific people today. Either being a friend or someone from my family. Missing someone is probably one of the worst feelings ever. Especially when someone lives overseas, you feel completely helpless. I hate distances. Ok negativity over.

I’m living in the future so the present is my past.

It's been a while since I last blogged - I'm gonna cast my mind back to this weekend. Saturday night was amazing - there have been points this week where I've actually laughed to myself remembering it. Being crushed in the middle of a mosh pit wasn't exactly fun - so me and Anya escaped and stood on the side (with a comfortable amount of space around us) and enjoyed the music. Without being trampled on - was amazing, I'm waiting for a time machine to be built so I can rewind back to it. The journey back was also hilarious - but that's another story all together.

It feels like I've spent the whole of this week waiting for something. I can't tell you exactly what it is, I hardly know exactly what it is myself, but I'm bored of wasting energy on things and friendships I don't need. A friendship should be effortless, and if effort is ever needed - then the person will make the effort for you if they care enough - It's simple. If the person isn't making the effort for you - they just don't care. Nothing more, nothing less. I've accepted it - I'm done 'waiting' because I'm wasting time, certain situations make you realise how fragile life actually is, don't ever waste time.

Every second you spend overanayalysing a situation is a second you'll never get back. It's a second you could have been smiling instead and focusing on the better things, they normally do outweigh the bad. I always tell myself not to expect things from people, it saves you from getting let down. I've had my fair share of being let down, it's not a feeling that I want to have often, quite the opposite. So I've decided not to stress (or frown) anymore. Who needs the stress? Or the frown lines for that matter.

All this warm weather is really making me look forward to Summer...but then again if it hits over 15 degrees in this country everyone looses their minds and comes out in flip flops. It's England - which means erratic weather. It will probably be raining next week. Unlike most people, I like rain (when I'm inside.) 

Listening to Hold On - Angus and Julia Stone. I bought their album on Sunday when I was exhausted, and very pensive. I was doing the whole 'I have nothing to look forward to' charade, but that's another story. The songs are amazing, but there's something about every song thats also very depressing. I don't really get depressed by music - it's weird. I also bought The Naked and Famous album yesterday - Amazing! It's the complete opposite of depressing. It's actually brightened up my week :)


"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow." - Albert Einstein

Some call love a word, some call love a thief.

I really should sleep, but the amount of thoughts I've been having lately is quite unnerving. Why is it that when you have something to look forward to, things move in slow motion. This week has felt like a year - and it's only Wednesday evening. Results tomorrow - I've tried not to think about it for about two weeks, but it's too close to forget about now. Prepare yourself for if I blog tomorrow, it won't be pretty.

Despite it moving in slow motion, it's been a good week so far (this will change tomorrow). I JUST want the weekend. 12th March - yes we've been looking forward to this day since the dark disgusting depths of November - when we forgot what the sun looked like and you couldn't go outside without 49389 layers on. Now that the 12th March is only two days away, I really hope this Saturday night lives up to all the anticipation we gave it. It should as the people I'm going with, the venue and the band are all amazing.

This is annoying me. So I thought I'd mention it. Why is the L word thrown around like it's meaningless? That word should actually be considered a swear word. When it's said people tend to turn into a state of mush. Whats the fuss? It's just a word and to be honest I only believe it when my Mummy and my best friends say it to me. Anyone else who would ever consider it coming out of their mouths can go away. I'm not saying I would never like to hear it, because I would be lying, just actually mean it when you say it - it gets boring after a while and turns into 'just another word.'

"Because I trust you and it goes way beyond a song when i say that i love you" - Goodbye To You, Ed Sheeran

Talking of Ed Sheeran, I watched this music video earlier. It's so sad - but such an amazing song. 

Sweet Dreams

I wouldn't want to have it any other way

CONTENT. Finally - Ahhh dkjhsaadahsd 11 days Until Two Door. So excited...many surprises await you ;)

I'm extremely confused about festivals at the moment (hard life I know) V Festival or Reading? If you're reading this and you've been to both. Tell me which one's better orrrr I guess I can just go to both. Still contemplating the idea of camping, I'm pretty much afraid of dirt. So I don't know how that one's gonna work. I'm down for 'new experiences' and all, so I might just camp, but it's gonna involve a lot of hand sanitiser.

Other than the confusion, life's good (for now). English coursework is killing me and I'm getting that spring feeling, even though its freezing. Exams are kind of close(ish) - which makes me panic, but I guess that means that Summer's close too - ha, wishful thinking, 4 months isn't exactly close. Results next week too. I'd prefer not to talk about this - I'm verging mental breakdown over these results. I'm absolutely petrified.

I just cleared out my music library, it feels like I've thrown away those clothes at the back of your cupboard that you keep 'just in case' you need them. Most of the songs in my library hold memories, but I thought that it was time I let some of them go - you can't hold on forever. Memories tend to fade after a space of time anyway, they just become weird blurs, but here's one I can't let go of quite yet...

Reminds me of a few summers ago, when a lot of things changed.

“Even if you think the flame has died, there's at least one lyric that'll hit that last hot spot, and then you'll find yourself as fuck*d as you were the day you lied and said you never wanted to see her again.” John Mayer