Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones.

I'm back in Engerlandddd. The weather's not bad which is shocking. Had an amazing time away. I love my crazy-ass family. A lot!

I actually haven't blogged in a while. I've reached a blip in my relationship with my page, I don't want people to load my page and think I'm an emotional wreck, or a moaning brat, because (hopefully) I'm not either. But this page is as close as you'll ever get to the inside of my mind if you hardly know me. If you're loved - its a different story.

Okay I'm gonna go off on one now...

THE FUTURE. Its annoying to plan ahead, as my whole mentality is this whole live in the moment thing. But to be honest you can only do this to a certain extent. Like in my previous post, life is about balancing things out. The most successful people think about the future as well as the present.

THE PAST - Is another story, I'm trying to get my head round if you should look back or even think about the past, you can say it's all already happened so what's the point? But the past also shapes who we are, and we learn from messing up in the past, so thinking about it is sometimes necessary to stop us making the same mistakes over and over.

"Trying to convince myself I've found one, making the same mistake I never learned from" - Drake, Fall For Your Type.

EXPECTATIONS. The one of many annoying things about life is when you get your hopes you, you always get let down. Always, it always happens to me. So I don't get my hopes up anymore. Its not negative, it's just better than that feeling you get when you get let down, when you wanna crawl in a hole and eat ice cream forever.

RELATIONSHIPS One word - fragile. Don't abuse them. Never take advantage of someone's trust and never second best someone because you'll be the one who misses them when they're gone. What goes around comes around.

"I just hope you don't believe in karma, because it will come back ten times harder." - Skepta, Rescue Me.

LOVE, don't say it unless you mean it. Its overused.

HATE. Again overused.

I'm doneee.

KANYE WEST AND JAY Z - THE THRONE is out on the 8th August. 9 days. So excited.

I will try blog more. With music links! They're more fun.

Loveee

She said I should come over, though the music's not my type..

Ok so remember that list? The one two posts before this. I've achieved one thing so far - I'm currently in Dubai staying at my cousin's - YAY. It's only day 1, so the trip is still young. It's been a good day though, went to the mall then dinner, and later, in the evening went to the beach and ended up in the sea with my clothes on with my sister. Nothing better - especially when the sea is warm. Won't ever forget that!

Today I realised that it's important to live. Meaning don't be caught in the moment, but don't get lost in the past. Keep your wits about you but don't let your heart play tricks on you. Do what you want, when you want and stay happy. Don't over think but don't make decisions you know you will regret. It's all really complicated and mistakes mean you will learn how to do the right thing, if you fall get back up. Who wants to be on the floor? I refuse to look forward this Summer or even to look back for that matter. The moment's more important and so is being happy. My happiness is destroyed when I over think, so it's not gonna happen. Not here, not now.

The battery on my laptop just went to red. Weeh :(.

Before I left - went to a party at my friend's, just girls, as boys smell. Was so much fun, as it was so simple. Made me realise how special people are and how short life is. Relationships are fragile and they won't get damaged if you never take advantage of someone's trust and never lie. 

"Never lie to someone who trusts you and never trust someone who lies to you." - Tyga.

Music.....The first song, just says summer all over it. I could listen to it a million times..I'll also add a few more links which I loveee.

x.