We wrote this for a purpose

Through the wreck that has been this week so far, I can only thank my beautiful friends for being there through every moment I've wanted to self destruct. When you immerse yourself in the love of your friends or family, you feel completely invincible, they create your 'bubble'. This bubble is full of giggling and just being really stupid - because it's fun, having someone know what you're thinking just by giving them 'that look' that you're both so familiar with, someone knowing you're not okay - even though you insist that you are. People like this are the ones know everything about you. And still love you.

Sometimes I think my friends know me better than I know myself, and that's not even necessarily a bad thing. In this 'bubble', days are perfect, you always have that feeling that every thing's going your way and nothing brings you down, you're constantly on a high and nothing else matters, but the reality of this is that that the 'bubble' tends to pop, just when you think everything is perfect and at this point, we give up. We turn into a negative mess and everything seems so pointless, your mind turns into a war field and everything seems to turn against you. I described it last night as 'the walls closing in on you.' - That sums it up exactly.

I think the idea of perfection is too generalised - it's your perception of your own ideal world that is perfection to you, everyone is different for a reason, life would be boring if we weren't. We all have our own 'bubbles' but I think we just get displaced when they burst. As you guessed my bubble has burst, but if this is a bad thing - I don't know. Today I've taken a step back, things aren't as bad as I think they are. But sadly - I have problems in taking my own advice. I speak for many other people when I say this, but maybe - when I find the courage to do this my bubble will become completely invincible, so nothing can burst it. Life seems better with an imaginary wall around you, you feel safer - but we all have to face what we are afraid of one day, it only makes you stronger. 

Take everything in your stride, learn from your mistakes, and don't be scared to step away from normality - It's fun sometimes, who wants to be normal anyway? 

"In order to be irreplaceable one must always be different." - Coco Chanel 

Really looking forward to the weekend - the idea of doing nothing really does make me happy, and at least we will ALL be back at school on monday ;). 

My friend/cupcake (love you) showed me this song  and I think its incredible..Thank You :)

Thursday tomorrow. Almost friday.x